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i don’t really know what this is supposed to be.

i just know that sometimes something happens and, for whatever reason, it stays with you.

sometimes it’s important. sometimes it’s completely insignificant. sometimes it’s just weird.

so i’m putting some of those things here. the thoughts, moments, places, people, and little things that don’t seem like they should matter — but somehow do.

wander around
left here small moments elsewhere
i wonder why
i remember this
and not the thing
that was supposed
to matter.
something that stayed
maybe we become ourselves in places we weren’t expecting to.

in conversations we almost didn’t have. in meals we don’t remember the name of. in cities we only visited once. in the people who knew us for five minutes and somehow left an impression.

i’m interested in those things. not necessarily because they changed our lives, but because they stayed.

why do some things stay?

i don’t know. maybe that’s what i’m trying to find here.

have something you don’t know where to put?
a memory, a place, a person, a strange little moment — it doesn’t have to be profound.
i’ll put it where i think it belongs →
check back to find it.
maybe the things
we barely notice
are the things
we remember.
some things don’t
need an explanation.

they can just be
interesting enough
to keep.
i wonder how many
completely ordinary moments
i’ve forgotten that
someone else remembers.
i still think
about that meal
i don’t even
remember the name of.
somewhere, someone
probably remembers
a completely different
version of me.
maybe we don’t need to know
why something mattered
to know that it did.
nothing here has to be profound.